Would you save my life
If you knew why this is the last time?
I'm leaving without you in silence.
Could you save my life
Had the boy that you knew not died?
This is the last time.
I'm leaving with out you in silence.

Can you tell me what stops the pain?
Self medication?
Science, saviors, tragedy?
How deep must we cut to reach sensation?
Find it. Bring it back to me
Where the void remains.
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Great. I think I'm sick. Joy. *sings "Happy Happy, Joy Joy!"*

...
Okay, for those of you who ready my LAST journal..yeah..I still feel that way. A little worse.
But I don't feel like going on, I'm sure you're all sick of my blabbing.
..
No, really.
Here's what I'm ruling myself down to:
1. Stop falling for people who you know won't catch you.
2. Re-read number one.
3. and again.
4. Stop waking up at 5 a.m.
5. Just don't wake up at all.

..
Heh.

Anyways, I'm going to shut up. ^^
Yeah, I woke up 5 a.m today because I was too hot [stupid, cheap heater thing >_<] and I couldn't breathe. And now it's almost [..okay..it IS] 6 a.m, and I probably have to go to school. And I don't feel amazing at ALL. I'm still really tired and just..ugh.
I feel like I could cough up my SPINE for all I know. -.-
I'm working the Haunted Village [it's the Lincoln Village, beside the apartment complex where I live] and I'm in the Vampire Tavern. [I keep saying I'm Edward Cullen ]
It's pretty rad. I went around "Interviewing" all the monsters last Saturday after the thing was over for the while. Next weekend I'm working Friday, Saturday, AND Sunday.
And guess what..my best friend [Ashleyy, and YES we are talking again for those of you I told we weren't] is going to Indianapolis for the WHOLE Fall Break.
Meh.

I've been starting to listen to AFI and My Chemical Romance again lately.
And it's made me realize:
I miss those days. When me and Ashley used to go around babbling that we were Frank Iero and Gerard way.
When we helped mom start a yard-sale and set up a lemonade stand JUST so we could get money to run like maniacs to Buy-Low to get that ahh-mazin' magazine with Gerard on the cover and the article about MCR.
When we were Ella & Helena, and we stood strong through thick and thin, and nothing could touch us because we were the strongest of them all..

Haha. I see it now. How time can change us all.
And I'm still growing up for one thing.
Will I still remember you all when I'm nearing dead and gone?
Will I ever get that happy feeling back?
Wow..just...wow. :/

Maybe I need a rewind button...or maybe I just need you.

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Tomi♥